10 years ago by
A Pianist
Hello. This is my first post.
I'm basically a self-taught pianist, 55 years old, who has recently re-discovered the joy of immersing himself in the piano.
Because I'm mostly self-taught, my technique is a mish-mash of things I've observed from other pianists, things I've heard with my ears and tried to assimilate into my hands, things I've read, and far too few lessons from competent teachers. I'm rather self-conscious about my technique or lack thereof, and have tried to compensate in various ways, some of which are moderately successful, and some of which are disastrous.
Even with my self-teaching, I've progressed rather far into the repertoire, and I can handle most Chopin Nocturnes with relative ease (for me, anyway). Representative repertoire: I play Rachmaninoff, principally the Preludes and Etudes-Tableaux; Chopin's Nocturnes along with the Op. 61 Polonaise-Fantasie, the C#m Scherzo, the Gm Ballade; Scriabin Preludes and Etudes, along with his Sonata No. 5, Bach's WTC, early Beethoven sonatas along with Op. 110, Mozart sonatas, etc. Right now, I'm working on Ravel's Ondine, Rachmaninoff Son. #2, Chopin's Fm Ballade (no. 4), Scriabin's Son. #4, and York Bowen's Toccata. I'm told I have a fine tone and good melodic sense, and that my playing evokes emotions in my listeners. I perform in public as a church musician, jazz pianist, and occasional recitalist (is that the right word??), and I actively seek opportunities to perform in public, believing as I do that the anticipation of public performance will encourage me to improve my playing, expand my repertoire, and enhance my overall musicianship.
(Needless to say, I suffer from stage fright, but I've never abandoned a "gig" because of that alone. I've tried to make the stage fright an incentive to improving my technique, hoping that as I become more competent and self-assured about my technical abilities, the fright will lessen. However, that's not the reason for this post.)
I recently purchased Prof. Fraser's Craft of Piano Playing and I'm slowly working my way through the early pages. I must confess to some initial confusion, but I hope that will clear up as I progress.
I've run into one thorny technical problem in m. 51 of Chopin's F# nocturne, Op. 15. No. 2 that is not improving. The problem exists in the right hand, in the execution of the descending chromatic broken sixths, a quasi-tremolo (?). As near as I can tell, a breakdown occurs when I attempt to place the second finger on the black key--I lose pulse and my hand feels as though it's locking up and is unable to continue. I've attempted to resolve the problem by slowly down dramatically, but as I said I lose pulse and the resulting drastic decrease in speed is insipid, to say the least! Slow practice has helped somewhat, but is not a cure-all. I know the notes I'm supposed to play, so it's not a question of "learning" them better. My hand simply seems incapable of performing this particular movement! As I said, as near as I can tell, the breakdown is between the thumb and forefinger.
An aside: For a long time, I was terrified of this type of fioritura-like quick passage in Chopin--my hands seemed slow, heavy and clumsy, incapable of leggiero legato playing. I've managed to begin (emphasis here!!) to overcome this, but it's been slow and very (psychologically) painful for me, as though my hands were my worst enemy intent on thwarting my attempts at musicality. Of late, I've been able to approach a "musical execution" of a similar passage in m. 52 of Chopin's Db Nocturne, Op. 27, No. 2., although I still tend to freeze up in the measure and even the beat before I must execute this famous passage. The psychological freeze up occurs first, then my hands duly follow my mind and freeze up as well.
I'm not sure how much of this is a pure self-imposed psychological impediment (because I'm convinced my technique is inadequate), and how much results from the inadequate technique itself. I've been trying to separate the psychological and physical components for years, with little success.
I'm struggling here for words to give a precise explanation of exactly what happens to me, but perhaps the foregoing will suffice for now. Regardless, the problem in the F# nocturne persists, successfully resisting my best attempts to overcome it.
Any help, insight, advice, encouragement, instruction, would be gratefully accepted and appreciated.
Thanks in advance for your valuable time and advice. I'd also be interested in hearing from other pianists on this particular topic.